thank you my frog~

Sometimes,
did you ever noticed about that memories day that Facebook show notifications to us?

exactly 4 years back then, everything was so different..
i told you i am so glad for having you beside me,
i really mean it so much~ cuz i did appreciate everything that you had ever done to me.
it's irreplaceable and valuable,,
i wonder do you still remember what you had told me few months, or maybe years ago?
maybe you will know how much i blame you for not telling me those earlier..

TIMING! and everything changed~
may be you dont even know how hard was i trying to heal myself and escape for everything those period,
i hurt myself physically, so that i could temporarily escape from the sadness that you had given to me,,
i tried to shut down all my emotions so that i could never feel anything..
i had nightmare for weeks and woke up with so much heartaches and tears on my face..
or i had insomnia for weeks that i couldnt sleep properly throughout the whole night...

I had never told you about that, cuz i dont want you for keep blaming yourself and being your burden again..


I wonder do you still remember there was once a korean homework about "if we could choose to go back in a certain period, what would it be, and why"...
and now, i would really want to turn back time to when we just began to know each other and start everything over again..

But overall i am glad that we are still friend, the love between us never distinct instead..
we are still good friend, i know i can still rely on you
as being a really good friend, you have never disappoint me,,
if you ask could i ever let go everything for the whole life,
my answer will surely be no,
things happened, and we could never forget everything,
is just that sometimes we missed out little things..
i am still loving you, but in the other way..
i am still missing you, missing all of our past memories as it became part of my life,
i am thankful for these that make me grow..

thank you my frog~